Today marks the end of my journey with N256.. It's kinda hard to digest that cos I really love that cg.. We cried buckets.










The girlss..









The guyss..









The 5 of us who are sent out! Yay yay, let's go make a difference..









Me and ser~ My first cg member! We were separated and then back again in n256! Now I'm leaving and who knows we'll be back in the same cg again~ hahah..









Some of the few remaining ones..



















AWww.. I really love them.. We've already planned to do so many things after my exams! But still can la. haha.. KTV!! YES! I'm actually learning some chinese songs now.. wahaha.. One month prep for that day! =)

So glad to be going through my teenage years with such lovelies.. Very very very glad to be surrounded with beautiful people~ And I know that friendships like that are for eternity! =)
But I also know that I'll be stepping on new grounds in the new cg.. Going to places I've never been and doing things I've never done before. For that I'm really excited! =) Thankfully I have weiwen with me~ Hehe.. Great. What a day!!

I know it's a tad too late wahaha.. But still I must say this..
Our class ended our last day of official lessons and lectures 2 fridays ago with a glorious end!
It was fun fUn FUN! We played played played.. It was madness la! I broke my own record that day.. Of playing captain's ball, volleyball and basketball all in a day! Love it love it..
Now I'm getting excited about the upcoming holiday!!!!! Very very very excited!! It's coming it's coming!! Yes!!!









Me and Yusu with ms ng's gifts haha~









Our class! With CT Sally Chua.. (I felt a burden on my shoulders) whaha..









With Azman~ Sleepy face in the morning...









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In the evening we returned for bbq!!













Xenia~ One thing I like about JJ.. we can dress down down down.... waha..









Presenting to you... the CUTEST DM ever! Also our maths teacher..











LOok!! We were in equilibrium! Wahah..



























Yay our prom tickets! =)









chang peng, kai liang, xiaolaoshu









Finale!!! hahah ~ (Seems like the world revolved around both of us! haha!)

Thank you 05s5 for precious moments like this..

Shocking statistic!!!
This is a survey done by Dove and they found out that only a pathetic 3% of the women in Singapore think that they are beautiful! Girls!!! WHY!! I think every woman is beautiful in her own ways.. EVERY.

Hey, I think this is a BIG problem la. Something must be wrong.. Cos everywhere I go I see pretty girls.. So I guess it's only a matter of self-confidence.. How much you love yourself. If you love yourself, you accept whatever imperfections you have.. You feel comfortable in your own skin.. And you understand that you have weaknesses.. As well as qualities. You focus on your qualities and make the best out of them. That makes you love yourself more cos you totally like being yourself!

Feeling fat? Know that our self-worth is not measured by the weighing machine. (I'm really good in consoling myself huh? Haha!) But really la, people can say all they want, at the end of the day the only thing that matters is what you think of yourself. So many people have commented about my weight... But you know how stubborn I can get sometimes? Cos when I reach home and I look into the mirror, I still like what I see. Haha! Ah, now you know why they say that "Love is blind."? Haha!

So girls!!! You are all beautiful ok? Heck what the guys say. If they don't bother to look deeper then don't bother about them as well. Muahaha.. Feeling feministic now huh. Haha nobody offended me la just really disturbed by that statistic..

*You make loving you so easy for me...*

Life should be like a kaleidoscope!
Always changing, yet staying vibrant and colourful! =)

Today it struck me that my college days are going to be gone forever...
2 more days of proper lessons + 2 weeks of study break + 3 weeks of A level exams and that close the chapter of education under the MOE. Kinda have mixed feelings though. But it means I'm moving up into another level and YES!!! There are so much more goodies await.. *rub hands together* It means that my dreams can start unfolding! And I'm so excited to see what's in store for me. Hehe.. Guess all these years of education is just a process where potential energy accumulates and upon releasing, it'll blow up the world in ways we can never imagine.

So guys, press on!

Pre-'war' is making me so self-centered! Don't like... Don't like to push everything else aside for that.. Especially my friends! =( But I can't afford not to focus.. (Girls! 23rd Nov you've got a date with me! I don't care I book you all first.. wo men bu jian bu san!)

Sometimes it seems like the 'right' one has come along... But yet deep inside you, in a corner of your heart you know he's not. Then it seems like WWIII has commenced between your heart and mind.. And if your mind is the weaker one, he's got you. Otherwise, your lethargic victorious mind stubbornises you...

Sometimes when a flame is still flickering, it doesn't take much to ignite it back.. And the more you want to blow it away, the bigger it becomes.. If you're smart enough, you'll extinguish it with water. However, it makes everything dull and boring.

Now I think I'm not smart enough..

What a havoc post-prelim 'celebration'! Have been going out everyday and breathing in my new-found freedom.. Sniff sniff.. Ahh.. Nice. Caught up with a few of my friends! YES!!! They never fail to make me laugh and make me high.. They're like my estasy! That's why during exam period I got cold turkey.. HAHA.. nonsense.. But thanks friends you are so important in my life! =)

That's the energy boost I need for the last 40 or so days... YES!! IT'S COMING IT'S COMING!! It's madness, I anticipate my A level days more than my birthday or even Christmas or CNY.. HAHAHA! I am a good and diligent student.. (ya... grin.)










The 3 Korean guys in my cg plus Ravi..









Me and Weiying~ Had such a good time of fellowship with her! =)









Together together.. =)













Bird joined us for pool! She's a real pro! *chants* real pro.. real pro...










Cg meeting the next day!! Da Ren booked out after 2 weeks.. Jane flew back from Australia and *sobs* Jean is transferred to another cg..

To be continued...

5 gruelling hours of exams today!! It was madness x10. I couldn't sleep last night maybe it was due to the overwhelming caffeine effect of Lipton.. It was madness la. My mind was still active at 4am! HAHA! But it was worth it man.. I woke up and studied a little more maths and ta da! It came out today.. But overall still....... Haha..

I donno.. I feel very relieved today! Cos I only left chem paper to go.. (and bio mcq) I'm already planning what to do after wed.. YES!! Go esplanade and print some scores to play.. Catch up with my friends.. Recently I discovered YIRUMA!!!!! His songs are really nice! Fell in love with them the moment I heard them.. Awesomee.. Go check it out ok! Esp. "Kiss the Rain" and "River Flows in You"!!







My dream.....










Erm.. I seem to always promote artists here huh? I hope they can spot my potential and make me their fanclubs manager.. erhem. HAHA..


*If you wanna soar, spread your wings first!*

Eric Clapton - Wonderful Tonight

Awe-strickened.

You know the recent death of Steve Irwin kinda struck me... I was shocked when I first heard about it over the radio (Class 95 YAY) and I couldn't believe it was really him who died.. I've watched his programmes and anyone can see the magnitude of his passion in what he was doing. Passion is blinded to risks... It places you second.

But at least he did what he loved and lived life to the fullest. You know how sometimes people live like they are dead...? When we have no dreams and visions, we don't anticipate what the future has to offer.. We.. may as well be.. dead? Oh oh.. very strong words huh.
But it's true right? =)

*Love keeps us alive too!*

I'm back!
Sorry girls I wasn't able to make it.. And I didn't want all of you to come down to JURONG POINT la hahaha.. After my exams I treat all of you ok! Miss you la seriously.

Haha.. Anyway, nothing much happened.. Life's pretty much mundane now.. Sometimes I feel like a trapped bird.. But had a little drama last sunday.. Kinda spiced things up a little.. Other than that, I spend everyday studying.. Eww, can't believe that's me. Haha.. My skin colour has also gone back to the original (lak sek) and someone actually thought I wore a thick makeup cos it was so white.. HAHAHA.. Goodness. Gotta soak up the sun again!

During my internet-less period, channel newsasia and the piano were my companion.. Man, don't I sound boring? HAHAHA.. Yes very! So I shall stop here hahaha.. (very zi dong one haha)

*And I thought love was simple... *

WOo! It's always good to have someone in the same flow as you.. who understands you and the things you do.. Like Steph said venturing into the music industry is a risky business. It's the 'all or nothing' principle I think. That's why few people dare to take this path. That's why I admire people who persevered and reached where they saw themselves to be, say 10 years ago? We're bound to have people who bring us down. But like what Corrinne May's lyrics says, we have to be "stubborn in the things (we) believe". I believe that I can be whoever I wanna be. And Steph, I believe you can too. I'm really proud that you've come thus far!! Don't ever give up ok.

By chance, I happened to know this music producer.. Hmmm.. He wanted me to send him a demo and go for this musical audition. So, I'm gonna train myself up after my A level and hope for the best! =)

Was in my own world all the time today..
Felt weird..
Slept late? Maybe..
I saw him..
Took a glimpse..
I.. didn't dare to look into his eyes..
Never felt like that before..
Oh well..

Rev Dr AR Bernard is here for 3 days.. FINALLY! He left a deep impression in me the first time I heard him a few years ago.. And after the past 2 days, he left a deep deep impression in me! =) I simply love his calm (zai) composure and confidence.. and his method of teaching. Though each conference lasted for more than 2 hours, it seemed like 2 minutes! Indeed every sentence of his has so much weight. I was totally captivated. Seeing things in a new perspective now.

Today's mood makes me feel like playing 'Endless Love' on the piano...
It brings about a nonchalant and disconnected feeling.. Like everything else is fuzzy with only me and my piano on cloud 9.. Hmm, but it's slightly out of tune now and the pedal doesn't work as good.. (will get it fixed soon!) Nevertheless, I still love it.. My first piano..











Me and my beloved~

Btw, it's really rude to put anything on someone else's piano lid.. =(

*My choices today determine my tomorrow*

"Things are only as hard as you make them seem."

As soon as I heard those words 2 days ago during prayer meeting.. Tears began to swell in my eyes.. Truly, there really isn't anything too hard for our Almighty God! He's the Man of His word, and when He said "Nothing is impossible with Me" He meant it. The word 'with' suggests a partnership. This is no one-sided affair! He's worked miracles in my life and I know that He ain't going to stop just there! =) There's just so much to look forward to! Let's not limit what God can do for us, if we can see it, we can have it!

For assuredly, I say to you, whoever says to this mountain, ‘Be removed and be cast into the sea,’ and does not doubt in his heart, but believes that those things he says will be done, he will have whatever he says.
Mark 11:23

God didn't promise us a bed of roses
But He promised that He'll be with us
He said that we will walk through the valleys
And He'll be the Light that guides us

In the midst of tribulation, I'm glad I have friends who walk beside me. They never fail to make things easier. Two is always better than one... Without them, life is madness. Without God, I am.. nothing. Really. He's my strength when I am weak, my feet when I can't move on.. My eyes when I can't see any hope.

I had an amazing encounter with Him 2 days ago.. He told me that I don't have to go through this alone and that no matter how unfaithful I am, He's there for me.. Always. That was all I needed to hear.. There was such peace, like I was in a bubble admist a chaos..
I was singing "Sanctuary" and one line hit me like never before..

You choose to live in me
I'm so amazed...

Like, why would God want to live in an ordinary me? Simply because He loves me, with His agape love. There's nothing more I can ask for...
You know there's this song that goes,

Take me out of the shallow water
Where I can stand on my own..
Carry me over the deeper part
I trust in You alone..

It's only when we stop leaning on our own puny strength and depend on God's, then that's when all the fun begins! Who still goes to the wading pool anyway? Bring me to the ocean! Where I can swim with the dolphins! I know there are blood-stained sharks lurking around, but I also know that with God I don't have to be afraid!

These things I have spoken to you, that in Me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation; but be of good cheer, I have overcome the world.”
John 16:33

michael bublé - sway


Other dancers may be on the floooooor~~~~
Dear, but my eyes will see only you!!
Only you! have the magic technique
When we sway I go weeeeeak.......

Michael Buble - Home


I wanna go home with him!!! HAHAHA!

Eww!! HAHA! Steph~~~ Our gluttony has caused us pain yet again! HAha.. Well, what happened was we met up at city hall.. and the crowd was humongous. People flocked to see fireworks like they hadn't seen it before! (excluding us la hahaha =P) Every restaurant was saturated before that.. There was even a long queue at MacDonald's. And my 'long' means the queue actually sticked out of Mac! Like a sore thumb.. Madnesss.... Steph and I went to Swensen's since we had the vouchers.. And we ordered a tad too much, we ate and ate.. until the entire firework display was OVER.. HAHA i donno to laugh or to cry man.. When we wanted to get out of marina sq and walk towards Esplanade, people were swarming into Marina sq... HAHA.. So in the end we went all the way to town just to eat!!! Get fat for nothing! hahahahha... Nvm.. I hope to make it for the one on saturday! Team France! Spectacular~

Another joke.. I actually lent Bird an empty cd case just now!!! Left my cd in my cd player.. How brilliant haha.. We are just so mad about MICHAEL BUBLE.. If he ever sings to me.. I think I will melt before the 2nd sentence.. He sings so effortlessly and charmingly.. aww.. Like it's in his blood.. We'll definitely pay whatever it costs to watch his concert!! And we'll both 'awww' together and act like those xiao mei meis in Jay Chou's concerts.. Cool. =)

*Holidays are meant to be fun!!!*

Wooo~~ Just watched "The Lakehouse" with Bird~~~ Rather nice but kinda confusing how they eventually met up.. hahaha.. And it's been EONS since I last watched movies with Bird.. I'm not exaggerating! The last movie we watched was.. "School of Rock" or "Wishing Stairs".. ?!?!?!?! Wasn't a movie fanatic then.. So.. Hee.. Met up with her ytd at the lib too.. (sorry i was so late) Totally no mood to study la. Birdie I miss ya!!! It's been long since we had a real 'private time' together wahaha..

Went for a night jog with Diana ytd at 10:15 wahha.. It's been long since I last jogged with her too.. A lot of catching up to do! (literally as well..) It's great jogging at night with the cool breezes brushing against your red hot cheeks haha.. And we chatted as we jogged.. Something I seldom do while jogging haha.. But it was a great 30 mins with her la.

Meeting up steph later for FIREWORKS!!!!!!!!! Oh, Jp was flooded in a sea of red just now.. I wore red too!! Not that I wanna appear patriotic.. Just so happened.. Haha.. I really know how to flow huh? =P

Nap time!

Went for a 'motivation talk' on thursday.. It was effective! Cos I felt a little freaked out. Handsome Ng observed a trend. As the exam period is nearing, there's an increased number of people getting attached. And just before exam, people break up.. I donno how true but it kinda make sense. Maybe there's this vulnerability inside of you.. But I'm so not going to do silly things which make me regret next march.. Teachers kept stressing that 'A' level is the most important exam of our education and how well we do will determine our next 5 years.. Which means what we do in the next 3 months will determine our next 5 years.. How can anyone not be motivated!!

So right now I'm sacrificing quite a bit.. Like the 3-night Festival of Praise! ='( Heard that Don Moen was good good good.. I like his songs too.. And I haven't stepped into the Orchard land for eons.. I totally miss my hangout girlss.... =( Ok shall stop complaining and look towards my next 5 years..
*You've come so far, hold on to the end!*

You know I'm not a TV person, but today I decided to switch it on.. To my very pleasant surprise, guess what was on? VOLLEYBALL match!!! Brazil vs Cuba. I love to watch vball matches! It's adrenaline-pumping given the drama and speed.. I admire the girls!! They're all pretty with substance. I like their determination.. and how they will give their all to save the ball.. That's the spirit!!

While watching, I reminisced on the competitions I had before.. Great! I never regretted taking part in those.. And, I realised something.. Most of the time, it's our psychological battle that we have to fight. This is one competition I will never forget. Bird and I were partners for table tennis doubles and we played against nanyang girls who were famous for always winning.. So we kinda took it light-heartedly and treated it like a real friendly game.. We smiled and laughed during the competition HAHA.. Bird you remember? =P Cos we were actually winning! LOL it was hilarious la.. And we watched our ex-coach's (nyghs's coach during that period) frown and we laughed. HAHA.. yea so in the end we unexpectedly won. Tyco or what I don't know la. HAHA..
But the moral of the story is: Always look on the lighter side of life!!! You'll never know how you can surprise yourself.

Another incident.. It was during sec 2 or 3.. I took part in Long Jump during Sports' Day.. What happened was, before 'launching', we had to sprint for a short distance right? Somehow, landed flat on my face and slided on the sand EWww.... And of cos people stared. HAHA.. But I didn't care la.. Comes to sports, I don't mind getting all unglam. In the end I won sth la..
Moral of the story: In the process of achieving something, it's really ok to fall flat.

Another one, I actually joined volleyball in my first yr in jc.. The training was crazy. 2 days of training 5 hours each and 2 other days of gyming.. (Maybe that's why I retained haha! Excuses..) My yr1 was totally packed with other commitments like church and piano.. So I quitted vball the next year.. And then, during the inter-school competition, JJ emerged the champion for 'A' division Girls. Of course I felt regretful for quitting.. But at that point, I was so proud of the girls..
Moral of the story: Fight on till the end!!! There's a gift for everyone.

One thing.. Never throw your bat/racket after a game.. Ouch.. They've worked hard for you! And never steal someone else's one.. It hurts! My precious t.tennis bat was stolen by some junior.. It went through a lot with me.. Even for my badminton racket, I never quite feel safe when it's in someone else's hand.. oops.. =)